I Wonder If You Notice

A poem written on the train.

His hand finds its way to her back, large enough that it almost covers her left shoulder blade.
I wonder if she notices how he does that every time the train arrives at or leaves a station,
As if his palm is her resting place, just in case she falls backwards whenever the train jerks forwards.
His eyes gently grazes the translucence of her skin, and his fingers intertwines with her hair.
I wonder if she notices.

His mouth hangs wide open as his head rubs against the previous passengers’ hair stain on the window.
His shirt crumpled from a day’s work, and yet neatly buttoned and tucked in.
I wonder if he notices the frown on his forehead that is so prominent even in his sleep,
As if he is perpetually worried about his work, or family, or
Maybe beneath that worn-out work attire, he has a heart that is longing for his wife and children at home.
I wonder if he notices that.


Her hair falls almost perfectly upon her fair shoulders — brown, big curls, beautiful-kinda messy.
The near perfection is the most fascinating sight.
I wonder if she notices the beauty in her eyes, and the elegance in her poise, as she lifts her eyes to look at her text.
Her slender fingers curls around her phone, and the subtle purse of her lips.
She might not believe that she’s a beauty, but I wonder if she has yet to notice that she is.


She rests her hand on his elbow, as his hand holds onto the steely cold pole.
As if she trusted more in his strength, than the sturdiness of her sole.
I wonder if he notices that she dressed up and made up for him,
clad in an electric blue dress that brought out her best.
I wonder if he notices.

Because I noticed all of these, and I’m glad I did.
That amidst the busyness of life, the bustle and shoving on the train,
I noticed beauty and love in you, strangers.
And I hope you’ll notice that beauty in yourselves too.

Found YOU.

I’ve finally found you in the quiet,
Finally, found you in the noise.
I hear you whispering through the chaos,
And shouting through my own voice.
I was beginning to sink into the depth of my own doubts,
thoughts that
You have forsaken me,
Forgotten me,
Forgiven me, but still disappointed in me.

So when I finally found out what you did,
My heart could not contain the joy,
Oh I’m such a kid.
Because I did not find you,
Oh no, how foolish of me to think that way,
You found me.

All these while,
In this state of human passions,
I was only searching for myself.
Selfishly, stupidly,
Digging every earthly well to find no water to quench this thirst
For belonging,
Acceptance,
Compliments,
Purpose.

But all these while,
In your state of Godly passions,
You were only searching for me.
Sacrificially, sweetly,
Digging every well in my heart to pour out your love to quench my thirst
For belonging,
Acceptance,
Compliments,
Purpose.

You pursue me, over and over again.
With the sweetest of love songs,
And the warmest embrace,
I ran,
Far,
And wide,
And yet, you still came running,
With a love song on your lips,
And a hug in your arms,
You,
pursued me.

Better of Me

Life has gotten the better of me.
My time. Space. Inspirations.
They have all watered away with quiet desperations
For a greater depth in my life,
For a sea-side rest amidst the strife.
My voice has melted to murmurs,
And my sight has blurred to swirls.
Why am I here? What am I living for?
Have I not asked and found the answers to these present questions before?
And yet, the past answers now stand empty,
Unsatisfactory for these questions that now remain hefty.
They say that life is a cycle
And you will always relearn when you’ve been told.
Maybe my answers will reincarnate like fresh manna,
Feeding my spirit in my Father’s sacred manner.
So perhaps I’ll relearn the depth of His grace,
And the comfort of His loving embrace.
Because I know the inner chambers of my heart is desperate with plea,
That my God will get the better of me.

World of Grace

Tilted Horizon

Caught in the battle between life and me,

Between where I am and where I want to be.
“Climb the corporate ladder,
You’ll make it one day.”
But they never warned you that your life is made of clay.
Malleable and vulnerable,
You’ll find their riches irresistible.
So you bend, and you break,
Till you get what it takes
To fake all that you are,
For this God-forbidden sake.

Merciless, this race for grace;
Billions shoving for favour in Earth’s little space.
Our eyes see its limit —
The finite space for success stories,
Where one’s victory means another man’s sorry.
Sprinting against the culture’s tide,
We run ahead where no one’s beside.
Our pride carriers us through
The creeping waves of lies.
Pseudo promises, worldly words,
Have we grown louder than the storms of this world?
Have we grown softer than our quiet heart’s purr?

The nagging thought of escape,
The lingering taste of hope.
You sense it beneath your skin,
You’ve seen it from where you’ve been.
The cruel cusses of this world’s demands,
Every fibre of you priming to reprimand
This pursuit for wealth and gains,
That comes in exchange for daily sores and pains.
‘Surrender again,’
You hear your heart convey
To your hands,
To end this strife for meaningless banes.

So your fingers un-writhe gently,
Unveiling the softest story.
The narrative that’s yours to tell,
The metaphors that joins and melts
With your desires and passions,
People’s hunger and society’s fractions.
Live it well, live it loud,
Blend right in with crowd.
In this infinite space for mercy and grace,
May our eyes begin to say,
“To shine in the darkness,
To help others up the ladder,
Because what is life, without another?”